Agonotheta

Embarrassed

December 11, 2003

I am extremely ashamed.

I don't know why exactly. Well, I know what I'm ashamed of, I just don't know why it affects me the way it does.

I have a deep, dark secret that I don't want anyone to know. I don't really want to talk about it. What I do want to talk about, though, is how this secret affects me. Honestly, it eats away at me constantly. Day by day. Almost every minute of the day I think about it. It doesn't hurt because I need to talk about it. Its just that this secret really embarrasses me.

The thing is that this secret happens to people all the time. They get over it. I know that my embarrassment is completely within myself. I just can't get over it.

I hate this feeling. It is eating away at me slowly. I hope it doesn't become unhealthy. If it hasn't already.

Just the fact that I can't talk about it is really stupid to me. First, you don't even know me, so why should I care? Second, the people who read this and know me, already know my secret. I hate this. I feel like a child again.

When its time, faithful reader, I'll tell you. But not now.

I wish I could wake up and it was all just a dream.

Can you guess my secret?