Torn
February 27, 2005
Last night was a very interesting night. I went to dinner with my sister and ended up seeing my roommate's girlfriend out with another guy. I texted him and asked if they were seeing other people and he said "not that I know of." He seems to really like this girl, so I told him that she was there with someone. He didn't know about it. In fact, he thought she was somewhere completely different. Today, apparently, they've worked it out. She was supposed to go out with several people and they all stood her up except one guy. So it just looked bad. Then of course, it turned out even worse because I ended up at the same restaurant.
It was a very, very weird meal.
I was deluged with a flood of strange emotions. Of course, my loyalty was and will always be with my friend Erik, so obviously I felt the strong need to tell him, which I did without hesitation. But soon after, I felt a strange feeling that I was getting involved in something I shouldn't have. With all respect to his girlfriend, I don't need to feel any loyalty to her. But still I felt I was overstepping my bounds. Don't get me wrong, I'm glad I made the decision I did. I just had so many emotions fighting within me that I became overwhelmed and confused by all of them. I don't know exactly how to describe it, but it was a very weird moment.