Agonotheta

The Next Level

November 30, 2005

This last weekend I was called at the last minute to go on a quick road trip to Vegas with some friends. I reluctantly agreed. I've done Vegas a thousand times and it is no longer entertaining. But I had just finished a big project at work and was rather burned out from, well life, so I decided to go. The friends I went with were three men aged 26, 33, and 39. All of them single, eligible, hard-working, financially-stable bachelors. We had fun. But it became obvious to me that I don't want to end up like them. Don't get me wrong, I respect my friends for choosing their course in life, but I don't want to be 40 years old and still single.

As you can probably tell the weekend really got me thinking about my life. In particular, I've noticed I don't feel as though there's a lot of meaning to it. Pretty deep, right? I get up in the morning, go to work, balance staying busy with doing as little work as possible. (Don't lie. Everybody does it.)

Yeah, I love my friends and they are a big part of my life, but in the end when I go home and lie in my bed by myself I feel as though I'm missing out on something. Basically what I'm saying is that I've taken off over a year and half from dating and I'm ready to get back into it. I think I'm prepared to take a relationship to the "next level." I don't know what that means, but I'm sure I'll figure it out.